Happy Birthday Brother/Joyful journey! Friends visit

I am belated by accident having planned my words but not publishing them at the right time.

My precious brother was born years later almost on my(and sister) birthday. He has been the one we loved on, smooched on, ruled over, talked with, laughed with and just enjoyed. He can tell stories that have me laughing so hard I cry. He is a strong leader and I have always wished I had his ability to lead and not look back yet he also has a very compassionate heart! As we get older I see more of his sweetness as he dotes on the nieces and nephews and is easy going like my Dad. One of my funny childhood memories are when my brother would spy on me and my date, or come in to get attention with a paper sack on his head and sit between me and friends or when he would ask for ice cream money only to later discover his stash of money in the drawer. He has always been a smart and funny little guy! Happy Birthday Brother! I love you!

My sweet friend Joyful journey has been in my life for many years. We have many memories that we share. She is one that is always interested in what others have to say and she had great input to give. She is loveable, easy going, and just down right sweet! One of my fondest memories with she and her hubby are when they went with us on a youth trip. It was an adventure with many interesting youth issues and singing and driving (wrecking) etc. I also loved our early morning walks and talks and sharing a duplex! I have always enjoyed and will always enjoy her friendship and am so happy we have re-connected in blog world! I look forward to a screamy reunion in person some day in the near future. Happy birthday my sweet friend!

I also forgot to mention that last week the day before my b-day a dear friend that shared the birth of my kids with me came to visit with her family. It was just like home week. I ran to hug her and we were screaming with joy over seeing each other! The kids looked at us like we were crazy. We haven't seen each other in 3 years but it feels like yesterday. I'm sure for kids it is hard to understand our special bond since we are not around each other right now but it is just like picking up where you take off. It really felt like fresh water renourishing you. What a treat!

Again, just sooo thankful for the priceless blessing in my life!

Thankful

I hope that you all had a good thanksgiving! We had a wonderful time at my husband's family. We drove up on Thanksgiving morning and helped with food, visited family, watched the kids play, play games etc. It was a lovely day. That evening we hit the beds pretty early because we were all tired and getting ready for morning shopping on Friday. My sister in law and I met in the hall at 4:15am...yes, you read it right. It is always so exciting to get up and do that. She had her eyes on a t.v. only so we took separate cars. I chatted with my sister and mom throughout the morning of shopping and that was fun and felt like we were still together in the process.

Hubby was given a ticket to the game and he was thrilled! So he and much of the family headed out. My sister in law and I stayed behind with kids. The kids explored the woods, played on hay in the barn, shot bb guns and the boys got to go hunting early in the morning with the men. Hubby and son saw a doe but didn't shoot. They had fun watching her.

Anyway, after the group left for the game and the kids headed to barn with walkie talkie, we got to visit with Memaw R. After she left my sister-n-law layed down for a nap with her girls. I wrapped the presents I had bought. When she got up we watched the end of the game and got to visit! It was great!

HUBBY GOT ON TV!! He landed himself right behind the reporter...we were shrilling with delight...the kids saw it too and it was so funny and fun!

We then fixed enchilada's for dinner and the crew all came home and we ate and relaxed together! Sat. morning we got up leisurely then headed home. Once home we decorated our tree and it is SO pretty!! I love looking at it. We put up decor in the house and then the kids decorated gingerbread houses! They did such a great job!!

Anyway, I am so thankful, for all this family time, for family period, for friends and blogworld! ;)

Yesterday we got together with friends for prayer time in the evening and it was sooooo refreshing!! I hope your holidays were good! Please fill me in!

Nov.21 Birthday Rap

Itttt's Our Birthday and we cannot lie
It didn't even take us by suprise
We're looking forward to a nice big break
We might even eat some yummy cake
Many years that it did begin
Being born with a great big grin
Being first has always been the best
Kicked me out so she could be the last
Sharing presents all throughout our life
Color coated so there is no strife
God's great blessing when life began
A forever perfect special friend

It's my birthday
It's her birthday
It's our birthday
BIRTHDAY!!

Sistor, You are the most special person God could have blessed me with to share so much of life! I love you and hope you have a tremendously wonderful day!! See a previous tribute to my sistor!! http://heartsjoy.blogspot.com/2006/03/sister-hood.html

Ever have one of those days?

Well, here I am writing what seems to be my monthly post. L We had a good weekend dressing up and having some yummy candy. I even dressed up at work as a puppy and you would have thought I actually turned into one. Let me tell you , it is a Very good idea to dress as an endearing animal because everyone just went on and on with the cuteness factor. I wish I could dress up every day! L

Okay, so back to my title, have you ever just had one of those days where you are just irritable and emotional and no reason why? Yes, I was having one of those yesterday. I was overwhelmed by the home, what I need to do and relating to my precious kids. (and no, not that time either....wish I could say it was.)

So, I was thinking why am I being so much this way? My life is good, I have had a fun weekend, nothing is really bad except for not keeping up. So, I did what any girl would do, I sent my kids on an outdoor hike with walkie talkies in hand and called to chat with my best girlfriend (my sister). It was just what the doctor ordered.

Can I just say that after I had some quiet time with them having fun and me doing some planning and strategizing with sister I felt 100% better. Oh yes, and after reading the e-mail that my parents are offering to keep my kids so I can get a date night with hubby....whoopie!!

So, I was just wondering if other Mommy's out there in blog land were having some of those days. Let me know what you do to snap out of it! ;)

Must Admit/Encouragement to you

My blog has been my home page and I must admit that I was sick of the same ole pics, music and entry so I am sure the rest of you are! I finally did some changes, yipee! Wish I knew how to change the color without messing everything else up.We have had a lot going on the last few weeks. We got to take a trip to see hubby's family and grandparents and that was fun. This past weekend we had a birthday party for our little girl. I will try to put more info and maybe some pics on her birthday.

I have realized by being out more how little affirmation a stay at home Mom or homeschooled Mom gets. In fact, instead of affirmation we get criticism. I was thinking how funny or not funny that is because actually investing in our kids is SO important! When we work out of the home there is affirmation in the job or the adult interaction or status but when a woman wants to be at home so many times it is looked down upon. Even among women/moms at home there is the competition factor so many times instead of the encouragement factor.

So, for all of you stay at home ladies I want to encourage you! You are a doing a great thing! Even though you fail as we all do, (and as I believe God knew), we are learning so much through Him. You LOVE your kids, have put them first and sacrificed a lot for them! You feel disheveled, alone at times and unappreciated, however, you are investing in the future of your future generations! You are highly important and beautiful! God made you to lead in this venture because He knew he could work through you to make something beautiful! One of my favorite verses is Eccl. 3:11a "He makes all things beautiful in His time.." This journey is a process, not to be rushed but enjoyed and invested in. You have chosen to do that and you are adored and loved! Thank you for having conversations about imaginations and pottery, playdough, colors and bears. Thank you for learning how to organize the home and meet the needs of so many others. Thank you for the loads and loads of laundry that you eventually get to. Thank you for the food you make three times every day. Thank you for the loving heart that overwhelms you moments of the day and discourages you. Thank you that although you fail you persevere and move forward! Thank you for being that Mom that takes criticism and gets critiqued but doesn't stop. You are running the race and keeping your eyes fixed on Him when you look up! You are learning the most valuable lesson of all, ONLY by His grace can this be made complete! Thank you for the daily training, encouraging, listening, loving and work that you do! I can't help but believe as our Lord looks at and walks through with us in the investment, failure, struggles and victories that He is smiling down upon you! Well Done good and faithful servant! ;)

New horizons

I thought I would share a bit about new situations and things I am seeing God at work in.

B - young girl with really no family support, opening up to me like a sister or mother for no reason, feeling God is allowing me to get to know her.
N - has fiance and baby on the way and so young, opened up to me out of the blue while I was doing what I hate (polishing silverware). I have to admit both big talks came while doing that.
L - gorgeous hispanic young lady with 9 month old boy....soooo sweet, asking me what day I am off, I think she wants to get together. I would love to get to know her more!
T - single businessman who went through a lot already seems like a brother to me.
F - husband and father working two jobs
E - husband and father working two jobs chats with me about son
I had asked God in the beginning why I had to do all that silverware and I think I am seeing a purpose now...if it weren't for that and my back chores I would be out ASAP but it holds me and creates these moments for relationship.

A - came strong to me at first but realized I backed off. Later asked me what religion was I? ...christian

Cooks, hostesses, servers, managers, bartenders - creating relationships with them and having moments of talk time and questions about my life and thoughts as well.

I also have been blessed with words and notes of affirmation, I must admit it feels good.

Concerns/challenges - I have had instances where I am being friendly and then somewhere it turns and I begin to feel uncomfortable with the direction(males). I would ask for prayer in discernment on being friendly but not where they are thinking anything. One example, I was even Asked for a hug and a kiss, I quickly piped..."I'm a married woman!" He replied, "I'm not asking for a date!" I just laughed and walked off. (Quickly YIKES!) You know it just makes men look desparate and gross when they take it to a level like that, knowing I'm madly in love with my hubby and kids. I know I am a little naive in this area and don't want to be.

Listening to the language is also a little hard because I hear a lot and I don't want to have it in my head. I know many people don't have issues with this but I do, it pulls me down.

Well, that's it for updates of praise and challenges as far as the out of the home work goes. I have plenty more where that came from! :) hee hee. Thank you so much for your prayers. I pray before I go to work for the situations and the people etc because I am scared. God is truly the strength and anything good that comes is obviously Him!

P.S. Last night I was off and had date night with my man! That was so great!!

Awwww!

I have noticed since I started working part time out of the home that I cherish even more the time I am in the home with hubby and kids. I miss them. However, the job is going good and feeling like the Lord is really helping me get a flow with it and just with the whole schedule. Thank you for your prayers!

Anyway, I was with my kids today swimming. We were doing races across the pool, pony rides, spins, hand stands etc. I have done that the last few days with them because the pool is about to close. I have so enjoyed our time there as well as Bible and table time! They are such amazing blessings!

My mom commented on how my son is seeming older. I have been emotional about that lately anyway (well about everything really because it is probably that...well, ladies you know) and last night while driving I was listening to Dobson talk about boys having to distance themselves from their moms (teenage years). This is so hard for me to think about. I love my kids and can't stand the thought of ever being distant from them. However, I can see even in the last couple of years how that has happened a little but still lots of closeness. I get teared up anytime I think of it. Also, a man spoke a few weeks ago about missing hearing his kids call "Daddy" . My husband eyeballed me and chuckled cause he knew I was crying .Okay, am I making you cry yet? I haven't even gotten to the good stuff yet!

So, last night my daughter fell asleep and hubby was already in bed and my son said "Mom, can we just cuddle and talk?" (like I'm saying no to that request on my night off!). So, we cuddle up and he just begins asking questions and we have such great talk! He asks me what I think he would be good at....everything! He wants specific ideas. He then says to me (on a different thought), Mom, I am thinking that I ought to memorize the whole Bible so if I went to a country that didn't have one I could tell them about God. (tears coming and smile beaming...could it get any better?) We chatted about many things eye ball to eye ball and it was one of those very special moments. He asked me, "Mom, do you think you will always love me?" Yes honey!...I will forever love you!! (he beamed with wide smile) We talked about how boys go through different stages growing up. He later said "Mommy I hope we are always close!" WHHHHaaaaaa, bwaaaaa....mee tooo baby! Can I get that in writing? And he closed with "I love you mommy!" in his sweet 9 year old voice. I love you too sweetie!!!! Okay, I'm crying again...did I mention that I have been a tad bit emotional lately. L

My baby girl has also been so cuddly lately and I love it. She still likes to pretend to be a baby and she is really funny. The other day we were reading about Abraham and Sarah and when she died. They decided to act it out and it was so funny. I know that sounds weird but they were what made it funny. Her standing up and then flopping on the couch when I got to the dead part. She was just telling me the other day that she wanted to do more cooking and sewing in productive play time. Yesterday I decided to fix eggs and pancakes and she went to get started. It was so cute. I would just tell her what to do and she did great. I stepped out of the room for a minute and came back and she was almost in tears. I asked what was wrong and she pointed...cracked egg on floor...told her not to worry, it happens to all of us. She didn't want to do the stirring or stuff by the stove cause it scarred her that she would get burned. We finally got a stool to lift her higher and she felt more safe but I was there close helping. It was fun. She also has wanted me to sit and just hold her. I LOVE that! Lots of smooches to those little cheeks.

Well, I have much more to write about but need to stop. Thanks for letting me share my heart about my little treasures. Hope you are having a great week! Hold those you love a little closer!
BTW, you guys are amazing encouragers! I have been so encouraged by your sweet comments! You're the best!

Survived Server Boot Camp

Well last week was the beginning of my new job. I had to study like a lunatic and work like crazy. My days started around 6am studying then going in to work around 12 or 1 and ended around 11:30-midnight. Usually not having any breaks or eating in between while at work until the end of the night. I had some not so good trainers and then some that were out of this world. My kids were visiting cousins for the week so they were having fun and I didn't have to worry with their adjustment or well-being just yet. THANK YOU SISTER (Literature lover)!!!!

They told us before we took the test that only 1 in 100 passed it the first time. I was so nervous but knew I had done all I could to know it. I PASSED 1st time!!! :) Thank you so much for your prayers. It really got me through the week. In the middle of the week due to emotional and physical exhaustion I was about ready to throw in the towell but that night was one of my most fun. Last night was the first night on the floor on my own. It went really good! Again thanks for the prayer support!! I have my kids back Yea! and we had school and fun during the day and then my hours were much shorter for my real shift so all in all it felt so good to come together. I still covet your prayers for the coming weeks and months but thanks so much for all the encouragement!

New Job/New language

For those who don't know, long story short, I am starting a new job part time. I am going to be a server at a nice italian restuarant. I have gone through many emotions but am not almost looking forward to it now. I have to go through training and tests so I am not so looking forward to that part. Which brings me to my news, learning a new language. I have to memorize the menu and the ingredients in the menu items.....Ack. Can someone say not good memory due to hypothyroid..yes, but I have so many prayers going up on my behalf and you know what? I am almost done with the appetizers and I just got the book last night!! Yippe! Still have MUCH to go, however, I see that it can be done.

So, my question, why do words look so different than how they actually say them? I have to see the phonetic spelling to get it right but have to know how to say it. Like Bruschette....broo ske ta or Cozze .... Kot ze where did that t sound come from. Okay, I know you don't care but I'm just saying. While I am studying I might as well learn more than just the names. ;) Getting hungry yet? How about some Mozzerella Marinara or Bruschette of the day or Calamari? All right, I'll stop.

Shocking!

I came by this by chance and was floored. It is a segment from the view where Elizabeth takes and strong and passionate stance about the morning after pill taking away life. She is quickly argued with but then sortof told she is out of control . The media labels this clip as "Elizabeth is loosing her mind". It is so amazing, they are trying to do damage control and don't want pro-life heard. I have not heard such a heartfelt stance for life in a while. I am not to shocked by Barbara bringing up the worst case senerio and putting it all on the line for that. E- tries to talk as if that were the only case...she is not advocating that only but saying from that argument. Thought you would be interested to note how shocking everyone makes her passion. Scary stuff. http://youtube.com/watch?v=1QI6QhyW_9g

Ready, Set, Don't go

Sometimes I think I can be such home body. I used to love to go almost daily but finally began to really enjoy home and a more peaceful lifestyle. I still like to go but I find that me and a good budget means me staying home more . I am weak when it comes to my children asking for things. I don't even feel that they are really bad about this but I know what they like and what they would want and I want to give it to them. However, I have seen grown children who had that life and gratefulness was not their forte. So, sometimes it is just better to stay home away from spending temptation.

Yesterday I had great plans. We got all ready and I was planning in my head to take them to the library and for some ice cream and play at their favorite play place. Just as I was about to declare my thoughts they came in and just asked if we could all cuddle. I love it. They are not toddlers so it is nice that it still gets asked for. Usually this entails me snuggling kissing and stroking their arms or cheeks while they begin to chat with me. :) (just for the record so I don't sound like perfect listening mommy, there are also times they ask to cuddle where I am in the middle of something and say no or not right now, but it is never with guilt, why do we mom's carry such guilt all the time? now that would have been a good blog)

So, anyway, they ended up getting good reading material and us sitting together on the couch reading and learning. I figured I liked our library better and they were completely content. (never having heard my other plans.) I haven't been going much since surgery except to some family deals. I may make today the outing....or not. LOL

Another weird thing with me is calling people back. By this, I mean people I love and really Do want to talk to! I get so perfectionistic about it. I want it to be the best time when I don't need to be giving attention somewhere else and where I can have uninterupted time with them. Isn't that silly? In the meantime, I hurt peoples feelings or they think I have phone issues. Do I? Does anyone else feel like this?

I guess I get the love of home from my grandmother who said "Honey, sometimes I get sad just pulling out of the driveway." We both laughed but in a way I see what she means. I enjoy having people over to our home and entertaining but some how when you are at home you can visit so much better than a noisy food place. (always had issues with spelling rest...you know, food places L) BTW, I have realized quite a few spelling errors in my last posts and none of you even corrected me...you really are great friends! ;) Okay, can you tell I still didn't have much to blog about?

Good Recovery!

Thank you to all who lifted up prayers on my behalf! My surgery went perfectly. I was able to have laproscoptic and go home three hours later. The doctor said I had a non-functioning gall bladder. It had a big stone blocking the canal and it did not have the normal fluids in it. It had a milky white substance around it and they are sending it to the lab.

My sister and hubby took me to the hospital and prayed with me before going in. My sis went to get the kids and take care of them after I was in surgery. My parents came but they had gotten me in so quickly that I didn't get to see them until after surgery but they were a welcome site. I rested there for a while and then felt good enough to head home.

My sister babied me completely and I had no cares in the world while healing. I don't know what I would have done during the day without her! She and my hubby took care of everything. I had wonderful friends who brought meals for the week so that was a welcome relief as well. My first day after surgery I felt really good and got up and around but over did it a little. The second day was a setback and I was in bed most of the day. However, since that day I have felt better and better with each day that comes. I am so excited because I am already starting to feel energy come back and that is a welcome feeling! I am so thankful to the Lord for His kindness and mercy! Thank you for your loving words and prayerful support!

Having Surgery

I went to the doctor last week to have some things I have been neglecting checked. I found out that I have hypothyroid so I will be taking meds that I am hoping will help me feel better and loose some weight. :) I also have had gall attacks over the years and wanted to get it checked. They had me come in on Thurs for a radioactive test.

I went in for the test but the first time through the gall didn't show up...they gave me morphine to send it back up again. It still didn't show. The doctor said it was an abnormal scan. He said "Usually what that means is you will be going to surgery today." My eyes were like saucers worried. He then went on saying, "However, since you are not in pain right now we can wait until you see the surgeon" So, they scheduled my surgery for Monday. I go in at 10:30 am and the surgery is at 12:00. It is suppose to be the laparoscopic (sp?) kind which would have faster recovery and I should go home the same day. There is only a 5% chance of having to have the cut you open kind....hoping I am not the 5%.

My parents and hubby are taking the day off and my sister is coming over. Sis has graciously decided to come stay with me to help me and the kids! I would really appreciate your prayers. I know this is a pretty routine surgery but it is not routine for me! :0 I am not real good with these things but I know I am at a bigger risk if I don't have it done. The doc. also said if I have any pain or fever I have to go to ER to have it done immediately. YIKES! So, that is what is going on here. Thankfully our insurance went through really quick. Again, I would appreciate your prayers!!

The one thing I am looking forward to is having energy again. I have heard from people with hypothyroid as well as gall bladder romoval and both have said about both things that after they got on meds or had it taken out they felt so much better!! I am really looking forward to having energy again! Tired of being tired. L

Love Em!!!

Today has just been one of the days where I realize once again how much I love my family!!! It has been a time of working on notebooks together and reading and cuddling. (If you get queezy with the mushy you may not want to read. :)

My dear son is so thought provoking and seeks so many wonderful answers. He is a strong leader yet very sensitive and kind. The other day when I felt bad he told me to lay back and rest and covered me up and gave me what I needed. It was so sweeet and was just what I wanted. I love seeing his tender heart in moments like that. I love talking with him, snuggling and listening to his ideas. I know God has terrific plans for Him now and in the future. I look forward to watching their relationship grow. He has a heart to tell others of God's love and he really cares about others knowing the loving God he already knows.

My precious daughter is a server and a giver. She has acts of service down and can see things how they need to be done. She also loves to give to others...money, cards, her stuff, gifts etc. She likes sports but is very feminine and girly. I love to sit and snuggle with her or play babies. She has such an imagination. Tonight she just showered me with kisses and it was soooo precious! (usually it is me showering her and brother with slobbery smooches) She loves God and doesn't understand why anyone wouldn't choose to follow Him. I look forward to seeing her relationship with the Lord grow and seeing what wonderful ways He will use her life.

I had a friend the other night at the pool watching them and said "They really are great friends aren't they." Yes, I hope they will always keep that special friendship bond. I love tucking them in at night with prayers, songs and some nights getting great chats.

My amazing husband, working so hard each day for our family. Coming home and working here too withOut cross words. He is loving with all his acts of kindness. His children adore him and he them. He makes us all laugh and brings more joy in the home. He is our leader and we all know it and respect his place. He inspires us with his leadership to be better. He is a lover of God and seeks to follow Him even when it doesn't make sense. He is Not a worrier, complainer or whiner. He is upbeat and looking forward in faith. I always look forward to seeing how God will continue to work in His life!

My sister, parents, brother, in-laws, dear friends...I could go on and on.

Yes, I know times change and things don't stay the same but I am so happy and humbled to be able to love and be loved by my precious family. Thank you sweetums!

Is Listening An Aquired Art?

I have been in quite a few situations in the last month where I needed to be silent and listen. I enjoy listening while I also get to give my own input. However, I am talking about the kind where you SHUT the mouth and really pay attention only to what they are saying. Putting aside your goals, intents, to do list etc...

I have a dear family member whom I love who is lonely and needs to be listened too. At first, when I was hearing stories two and three times, I began to feel a sortof frustration and wanting to yeah yeah the story up. However, through many different avenues the Lord guided me to calm down and enjoy the ride. I mean, just listen. You know, even when stories are the same there is usually one thing different. Or, even if it is the same story you can still take joy in it thinking of that person in that time.

I was invited to lunch at a Crumpet Tea Room with my Mom and her buddies. I ended up going to the wrong one so I was pretty late getting there. They had all finished eating and my food was waiting on me so I started to eat. Right off the cuff they wanted my opinion on some marriage things. The conversation later turned into parents with grown children. They were talking about trying to help their kids but how that seems to make the kids mad. We ended up sharing some about how my Mom handled this. She'll admit that in the beginning she didn't handle it right. She suggested, encouraged, expected etc while I heard in my mind not good enough, criticism, failure. It goes along with a quote from a devotion she studied that really stayed with me. "Unsolicited advice is criticism". Whoa. Now, I know with young children it is a little different but we are talking adults. Anyhoo, chatting with those ladies and hearing my Mom say that the very Best lesson she finally learned was to "Keep your mouth Shut!" It kindof hit me that I need to be practicing this lesson now on insignificant things like the color of my kids shorts not matching or the way They fold the napkins. Some things are important but the most important thing is them knowing God's love through me!

Anyhow, back to case in point. Art of listening. Listening to friends, family, God. I believe it is an aquired art! As I heard it said to me "Love, Is, Something, That, Everyone, Needs = LISTEN.

Inadequate

Have you ever felt this way? It seems that this feeling of inadequacy peeps it ugly head quite often with me. I can feel happy and joyful about life but then it seems I realize once again how I fail or come short on so many levels.

My husband sent me an article by a man who was highly involved in marketing. He is out of marketing now and telling people the truth about the marketers and how they work...it is very eye opening. Their goal is to keep us feeling inadequate so we buy all their products to make us feel better.http://www.sixwise.com Lies. Deception. Sound like someone I have read about before. I realized that once again the father of lies wants me stuck in my inadequate mode because there it goes to self-focus and a downward spiral.

It is amazing to me how opposite God's message is....hope, peace, worth. I realize that I have been allowing myself to listen to many avenues that provide lies. I am feeling convicted but still allowing it to be in my life. Why?

I heard a pastor talking about how we are in good company if we do the things we don't want to do and don't do what we want to do. Paul. He was so passionate for the Lord. David. A man after God's own heart. And yet, obvious downfalls and sin in their lives. Did that stop their journey? No. How encouraging. We are a work in process.

I saw a passage that I have seen many times before, however, it had new meaning for me as far as our home and school wise.

2 Timothy 3:16-17
All Scripture is inspired by God and is
profitable for teaching,
for rebuking,
for correcting,
for training in righteousness,
so that the man of God may be COMPLETE,
Equipped for EVERY Good work.

Complete. Wow! That is where I need to be in Him, His words. I want that for me and my family, my kids.

What is the Purpose Again?/Routine schedule

Do you ever do this? Wonder about the purpose of different things going on in life. I was asking myself why I do certain things certain ways. I mean, I LOVE paper plates that you can throw away instead of washing a dish just to make it dirty again. I do find joy though in having pretty dishes and a nice dinner and I don't want to support cutting down All the trees with my lack of desire for washing.

So, anyway, back to the point....purpose...what was the purpose of this blog...oh yea, I was thinking of this in relation to my kiddos and our agendas. I have been accused of being a fun mom which I love. However, I have begun to see kinks in that wonderful plan. You know, kids require more fun times, expectations are up, gratefulness is down etc etc... I want my kids to have a fun life and then thought why exactly? I mean, I guess it is because I want to have fun in life. I believe our heavenly father created us to have those fun moments and to find joy in the midst of life....however, I don't read where he says our life is about fun only. He talks of persecution and sacrifice....things I cringe at. Hmmm, not fun. However, in the martyrs I have read about, they have such peace and contentment in Him alone. There are stories I read that one would think they would chuck it and get out of that mission field but they stay. For what purpose. Their desire to be Holy not just Happy.

So, in light of that...realizing I may be sending my kids the wrong message with only fun times in mind. We will continue to have them but I want them to also understand sacrifice and perseverance, putting others first and discipline. I have always hated that word....discipline...maybe because I feel like a failure there. I don't want my kids concerned with failure but rather focusing on the goal. Not focused in a Me mentality but Him mentality. We all have ups and downs but you know what I mean? What is the purpose of all we do? Is it really for the higher purpose or are we only focused on Me and My stuff. Life is so fast and I don't like how fast it is going but now I realize more than ever that my purpose is to guide my treasures to be ready for battle, be ready for defeat, be ready to be focused, disciplined, self-sacrificing. True contentment, peace and joy will be found in Him.

Sometimes in homeschooling I have put our table work or reading/knowledge work before the heart work. When I do that things get out of wack. Usually when I do that it is representative of my own heart issues. So, striving forward. I love to read other peoples schedules so I will list some of our own routine for now. You will find not perfection here but what we strive for Enjoy.

Sortof Early Morning :)
*Breakfast
*Morning routine and daily chore
*Bike riding (for kids)

Mid Morning
*Table time - this focuses on whatever season the kids are working on. Usually always involves copywork of things I choose or they choose. They usually like to accompany copywork with artwork. Alternate days of math, Language arts/phonics, geography (however, as you know this is always going on anyway).
*Prayer/Bible - we move to living room, have globe/dictionary handy. We sit around coffee table, talk about what we want to pray for, look at past requests and see what has been answered then we all pick some to pray for and pray. When we begin the Bible reading,I read and answer questions while they draw whatever they want from the story. BTW, they are wiggly, moving and drawing etc. However, they listen very well even wiggly. I ask them to tell me about the story...youngest first....older always seem to get more.
*Free play

Lunch

Early Afternoon
*Reading
*Outside activities...for summer often swimming

Mid-Afternoon
*Productive Play - This is their special interest times or things I encourage them to do to see if there is any interest there. I let them help me in this to develop their special bents and gifts.
{Some examples:
**Son age 9 - movie making(illustrating, filming, editing), building(with wood, invention creation, legos), reading, playing learning board games, nature study.
**Daughter age 6- drawing, sewing, knitting, board games, puzzles, playdough, nature study.}
**Me - designing regency/modern dresses, sewing, songwriting, knitting, researching interests, writing about findings.

Supper

Evening Family activities and free time.


This is our routine that we try to live out. There will defininetly be God interuptions. However, I don't stress if something gets left out. We are striving to do this routine and always willing to tweak it when needed. :) I would love to hear your routines as well!

Happy 14th Anniversary!!

Happy Anniversary to Us!! Wow! 14 years! I can't believe it!

Honey, thank you for all the wonderful moments of much laughter
You truly have a gift of making me laugh everyday!
Thank you for taking out the trash without being asked.
Thank you for looking me in the eye's and telling me you love me before you head out the door (because you know I am obsessive and need this in case something ever happened to you)
Thank you that you accept me for who I am, appreciating the good, looking past the bad
Thank you for being an amazing father who puts our family first, when you love on our kids it is as if you are just pouring that love on me too!
Thank you for mowing the grass, taking care of the lawn, house and us!
Thank you for being a loving provider! Who would do anything to make things work for us!
(even if you had to be a heart technition again....lol)
Thank you for being a compassionate, steady, strong, to the point, leader!
Thank you for loving God and following His leading even when you don't understand it and even when you might be ridiculed for it!
In the song I sang at our wedding it said "I have chosen the one to love, now I will love the one I've chosen!" Thank you for choosing me and making my choice of a mate a pleasure!
You are my dear heart and soul mate and I love you and cherish every moment I get with you!

Happy Anniversary sweet hubby!
(verse sent by sister)
Remember His wonderful deeds which He has done…..I Chronicles 16:12

Grace at 5:00

We have been visiting some different churches lately. Got some really great insight revealed that I have to share! Yesterday the man who spoke talked of the story in the Bible where a man who owned vinyards went out and got day workers to help him harvest. This owner made an agreement on payment with the workers from the very beginning. He hired some at 6am, 9am, 12, 3pm and then, almost at the end of the day, he hired some at 5pm who he found had been waiting for work all day. As the day ended he instructed them to be paid last to first. What he pointed out next is what struck me.

The ones who were there at the beginning of the day got discontent....they wanted more than the ones who got there at the end. I could totally relate....I would probably be one of those irritated workers. Then he brought out that it was because of their wanting MORE. They had been fine all day. They were okay with working first and agreeing to the pay. They were okay with other workers being hired throughout the day and being paid something. However, when they were paid and thought they Deserved More is when the discontment happened. They were not treated unfairly and the vinyard owner pointed that out. He had in fact given grace by hiring them in the first place. He had just extended grace to the late workers. Whoa. That hit me. How many times have I begrudged someone a pleasure or grace because I felt it unfair. Really hit me and I took it home. Time to get more in tune with the grace I have already been given and be happy and content even when others get more.

Flowing moments/What did he just say to me!

Our Father's day had interesting happenings. We had my husbands family in Sat. night and it was so good. We headed to church to sit with my Memaw since it would probably be a tough day. It was. However, the whole song service was on God's faithfulness....how loving and encouraging!

So, afterwards I said goodbye to all except my kids and we headed to the airport to pick up my parents from mission trip to Brazil. My husband was going to head to the resteraunt to save us seats. I got there all excited. No plane...delays...hmmm, what to do. I quickly feed the troops some junk food that they split (being the airport food is a rip-off!) . After I realize that we are going to be here a while I decide to take them outside. There is some hills of grass that they want to play on. As I sit in the car (in front of them) I watch as they run and play. I had let them take off shoes and socks so they were barefoot and looking like a movie moment. I watched as my daughter danced and twirled and ran. Brother chased after her. He then used a hand that pointed at sister, she acted like she was choking.....she brought out shield and sword and fought back he acted like he was choking.....ahhhhh, star wars moments.

We eventually headed back inside to explore and play. As we heard the plane had finally landed (almost 1 1/2 hour late), we headed over to the escalater to watch for Meme and Poppa. I caught eyes with a man and his wife. They said "Ohhh Hi!! How are you doing? What are you doing here?" Trying to think how I knew them, "Hiii, doing good, here to pick up my parents." Bit of confused look from them. Found out they were from our church we had been at here. We chatted as I shortly brought them up to date. THEN, the man says to me out of the blue, "So, now this means you'll be able to get out there and get a real job to...help make a living"

My thoughts...."WHAT? did he just say to me?!!!" From the bottom of my feet to my head feel the blood boiling, heart begins to pound really hard and almost anger sets in. I smile and say "I do have a job (point to kids), Two little jobs right over there that keep me pretty busy!" The wife possibly picking up that I might slug her hubby or wanting to slug him herself steps in and sweetly says "Sure you do, that is a big job."

I got to thinking:

1. It is not good to blab your judgment on others. (especially when you don't even really know them!)

2. What other job is More important that investing in the lives and future of my own kids?!! Nope, nothing else in my noggin!

3. Do I forgive him? Of course I do, I make many mistakes and word mishaps myself.

4. I will close with a couple of verses.

Deu 6:7 And thou shalt teach them diligently unto thy children, and shalt talk of them when thou sittest in thine house, and when thou walkest by the way, and when thou liest down, and when thou risest up.

3Jo 1:4

I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth.

Faithbooking!

I have had some people ask me about faithbooking so I decided to write a post about it.
I went to a party one time for scrapbooking but it was called Faithbooking. I will try to describe it and then give an example. She chose pictures of times in her life where God did something with her Faith...to grow it...kindof like a picture book of her faith journey. The pictures may not even have always had her in them but it was something or someone who led her further. The story was so beautiful and brought us to tears. It is not as decorated as a scrapbook (however you could do that if you wanted to) and has more journaling beside pictures. One thing I loved is how she spoke about history was past down with writing and pictures. What an awesome thing to leave to our kids....our faith journey...or their own faith journey to look back on. It is just such a wonderful idea.

I am going to try to link a picture so you can see the pic and see my journal as an example. http://www.flickr.com/photos/10996764@N00/120578496/

The kids had been avidly praying for a dog. Dad had even kindof wanted one. Mom said NO. One day we were at soccer games until late in the afternoon. When we got home there had been a message left early that morning that a dog was chained to a handicap parking pole in our church parking lot. They wondered if my hubby could do something about it. He was a minister on staff. He told me he thought it had probably already been taken care of but he wanted to go see about the dog since it had been a really hot day. He took off. Shortly, he came home and opened up the back of the car. Out came the cutest dog (a lab beagle mix). My kids were estatic. They asked if we could keep it but Dad said we needed to see if we could find it's owner. The dog had been well cared for and was well trained. He slept on a bed we made him that night and didn't get up once. He was quiet, loved to snuggle and play with kids, didn't bark much, obeyed most all orders. After days of not finding the owner, the kids were saying "God gave us a dog!!" I had to admit that if I Had to have a dog this one met my standards of already being well trained and not loud and irritating. God met the whole family's desires and answered my kids prayers!

Back!!

We are finally hooked up again and I'm so excited. It is amazing how you miss some of the connections while being off. However, we have been so busy with unpacking, job searching, family visiting that we have had little extra time. Thank you so much for your prayers during this time.

God's provision again! My hubby has found a job! Yeah!! It is not in ministry but rather management. It looks like it will be something he will enjoy and an income we can live on. It will definitely be an adjustment but we are excited about it. We have prayed and wrestled about full time vocational ministry but at this point we believe we are not to be full time. We love ministry and will continue to do it as it is our first calling. However, it will just look different than what we have done in the past. Thank you for continuing to pray for our future.

We are enjoying being back at home and close to family. It has rained for several days and we have LOVED it!! We came from desert so the refreshing rain and cooler weather feels terrific! We also love the rolling hills and greenery!! Nothing like home. :) I firmly believe that your prayers have helped us in this very chaotic and emotional time. I cannot thank you enough for all the loving support. I am anxious to get done unpacking so that I can have more time to read your blogs and catch up on your lives!

God's Provision!

"God is faithful even when we are faithless" (part of a verse in the Bible that has ministered to me....at the moment can't remember the reference will have to fill in later)

I want to thank so many of you for your sweet encouraging words. Michelle, thank you for your blog and continued encouragement to us! My family and friends have done so much...they have given money, hosted us in their homes, helped us move, brought us food and certificates etc. I believe all of that is God's provisions.

Also, we had an amazing moment when we were getting down to nitty gritty and bills were rolling in, a man who had been at our last church somehow heard about us coming back and our situation. We really don't know how he knew because we hadn't told to many people in this area yet. However, God allowed him to know and impressed him to give to us. He wrote us a check for $5000.00!!! I cannot keep quiet about it because all of you are praying and I must give testimony to God providing!! WE are thrilled and thanking God! I had peace that God would provide, He has done it before but he also allows us to struggle at times for learning reasons. Needless to say, I was overjoyed when the money was revealed. Relief and less stress for this month. Thank you God!!

So, thank you for your continued prayer support. I am only briefly at a computer. We will not have internet until around Tues. I miss getting to chat. Hope you are all doing well! Thanks for your love. It has brought me to tears!

Thank you sweet friends!

How can I thank you enough for your sweet kind words and love. It was very comforting to me and I cried as I read your sweet comments and heard sweet words of love and encouragement. I cannot share with you how much sweet friends like you are so important. God even allowed Michelle to call me right when I was breaking down and really wanted to talk to family but couldn't. Her sweet words had me bursting in tears and she was crying with me and encouraging me...Thank you for that Michelle. (this ones for the girls)

God sustained us as we headed home on a 16 hour trip. It was broken up. One of the hard parts was that a very violent stomach virus was spreading among the family who had been around Papaw the last few days. My Mom and Dad and Uncle Ken and cousin and my sister (literaturelover) were such troopers caring for everyone. They worked so hard and I was so wishing I was there to help. It was hard being away. When we finally got there I really couldn't be around them much because of the threat of sickness and our impending move. God so helped sis and me to sing for my Papaw's funeral and our husbands speak. They did an amazing job. Memaw was well enough to attend even though she was very weak. It was such a sweet service and a tribute to this precious man we love.

I am in the middle of finishing packing as well as having some time with a friend at the beach. (bttrfly1976). She has treated us to join her at the condo and it has been so nice to listen to the waves and know the vastness of God while also having such waves of peace and sadness. We are gearing up for more goodbyes this Sunday. Our church is having a going away reception for us. It is so sweet but hard too, goodbyes are never easy.

My husband's part in the speaking was about how every exit is an entrance. It is so true. Thank you again sweet friends for your kindness. Much love and hugs.

Sadness

Today is a sad day for our family. One of our favorite people made his way from this life to our real home. It was our Papaw. We love him so much that it hurts and at the same time we are happy for him to have relief. He was so many things to us. He was a support, encouragement, laughter, loving, kind, loyal. I would love to give a royal tribute to him but it may come later. Today I am dealing with goodbye. And my encouragement is thinking of his face to face hello.

Incredible

I have to share something so incredible with you.
My friend www.intothedepths-bttrfly1976.blogspot.com
did all the work to find this video and it was SO touching to me. I wrote a few blogs back about wanting prayers for new decisions. I just want to say thank you for your prayers. A new decision in our family has been made. I don't have time to write all about it but we are moving back to our previous home. We have peace about this decision and many factors in the reasons. We do not have things figured out for future but we are living on faith in our Father who is more than faithful. We would appreciate continued prayer support and I would love to encourage you by having you double click on the song above....beautiful message.

Happy Birthday Dad!!!

Today is the birthday of one of my greatest Heros! He is the man who worked two jobs to make ends meet so that my Mom could stay home with us. He is the man whose family WAS His hobby and we knew it. He is the one who was always there filming pretty much anything we did and promoting us to others like a promotion manager would do. He is not about being in the lime light and is a very behind the stage personality. He is a major Server and serves the Lord with a joyful spirit!! He is always sporting a big grin and His face just naturally looks loving and caring. He is a man so many others respect. He is consiencious (sp?) and detailed with financing and overseeing the affairs of the home. He is wise. He is a follower of Christ, not just in words but in deeds. He shines the love of God to anyone he meets. He is friendly and a hugger. He is also a teaser! He loves to jump out and scare or to do pranks. He also receives this back with laughter and fun. He has helped laughter always be in our family. He has shown courage, faith, love, hope, and peace throughout His life!

Dad, there is no way to adequately describe you. I do want to say that I am forever grateful that on this day many years ago :) you were born and have blessed and enriched our lives forever!!

I love you!!

No Ease

I have read some heart hard blogs as well as heard from people whose heart was heavy loaded. I too have had those times lately. It made me think about my life. So many good as well as painful moments. I want the good ones to last and for things to be ease for me, my family, friends. Even when I feel I am in a pocket of ease someone I love or care about may not be. I think I have hoped that there is that place where I will glide and be at peace not wrestling.

In ministry I have seen situations where people are totally obedient and yet things get hard and bad. Then there are others who seem to glide on to what we see as glory. I get distracted and off base by that. I want that. I'm realizing that is not my promise from Him. He doesn't want me distracted by the worlds view or even good people's view. He even tells me that I will have persecution. He promises He will be with me. He doesn't say life is about happy but rather joyful in Him. To accomplish the ultimate purpose.

Our time on earth is not about ease. I have had the priveledge of those short moments, but all in all it is about sacrifice, challenge, taking up the cross and following after regardless. This does not mean hopeless but how much more content and free would I be if I really expected trials instead of working to not have any. The real ease is life with HIM as well as our future home with Him in heaven. It makes me more hungry for Him and for my true home. It makes me realize that maybe that is the point, and Maybe the ultimate lie of the enemy is to get God's people striving for the wrong thing....ease.

Does Somebody Need a Hug? / Greetings!

A few weeks ago my Mom and I were talking about greeting others. I had written a little article about it and was sharing with her. She then told me a story that was so cute. She talked about a lady in the office who refused to be ignored or not greeted. She would speak to everyone and if they didn't even acknowledge her she would say something to the effect of "Does Somebody Need a Hug!!" and get up and hug them.

I totally laughed at this because I, myself, am a big hugger. I know the feeling of giving someone a hug who might not want it. After a period of time, she trained others to know that if they didn't speak or greet, then she would help cheer them by giving them a hug. Many people who do not speak are task people so they are not necessarily wanting hugs either. Turns out, they were able to find it within to begin speaking to her. They also became more pleasent. Isn't it amazing what just one person can do to change attitudes or environment.


How to Greet Someone

1. Look at them and speak! Have you ever walked in a room and people look at you but no one said a word to you? It is a bad feeling. On the flip side. Have you ever walked into a room and were greeted with a warm hello? It feels like a fresh drink of water.
2. Raise eyebrows and smile. I remember being in a seminar with Gary Smalley and John Trent and they talked about honoring someone. They raised their eyebrows and opened their mouths with a gasp. We all laughed but you know what, who wouldn’t want that greeting. It is as if a great leader or movie star walked into the room and you can hear the gasping and excitement. THAT is how we should greet others! With enthusiasm and excitement!
3. Words of warmth and excitement. Suzie, I’m So happy to see you! Julie, I am so glad you could make it! John, great to see you here! Hi! Hey there! What’s up?!! Hello! Welcome! Do you notice what kind of punctuation is being used on all those welcomes? Exclamation marks!! That is how we should be with anyone we greet!
4. How hard is a greeting really? NOT HARD. I actually think it takes more effort NOT to smile or speak than it does to just do it. When you greet you share a warmth with others. It is like passing a fragrant flower rather than a mildewed dishtowel.

So Go for it! The next person you see…Greet!

Head Spinning!

Have you ever had times when your head is spinning out of control?! My husband and I have a lot of decisions that we are in the midst of making. It is talking and talking and thinking and thinking and praying, praying...you get the point. I want to focus on other things but find myself consumed. I know that He wants me to "cast my cares upon Him" and "be anxious for nothing but in everything by prayer and supplication let my request be made known to Him" and I am trying to do all that but still find it consuming me. I prefer to know everything that is suppose to happen RIGHT NOW!! That is not how it all works out though. I guess it is part of His plan to Grow me. But I don't have to enjoy it do I? Oh yea, rejoice in everything....hmmm. I do find though that when I do go to Him and get His peace I am able to rejoice in who He is but it is just getting to that point. I would really covet your prayers for our family and decisions being looked at and made at this time.

Top Five New Abbreviations!!

Drum Roll Please!! Here are the Top Five New Abbreviations for this blog:

cs-curtesy laugh
lhcb-laughing hard, can't breath
br-bathroom run
dul-deliriously uncontrollable laughter
idhtttuga -I don't have time to think up goofy abbreviations

Thanks to all who participate and won in my goofy abbreviation contest!!! :)
(see previous blog for credit to winners!)

lol,rofl, What are your thoughts?

I was talking to my friend the other night about the abreviations we see all the time. I told her I thought it was time for some new ones. So, here are my thoughts for laughter suggestions.

sl=snorty laughter
ll=little laugh
al=almost laugh
sh=stomach hurt
bl=blast laugher
ng=nutty grin

I know that I am Not the most creative person so would you guy help me out? Just think, we could start a whole new trend just by using our own abbreviations. I would love to see your ideas and then we will give it a drum roll and a top ten!!! You could be on a top ten list!!!
(can you tell I need some sleep?)

Remembering Amber and Aunt Helen

This weekend last year was a sad one for us. My cousin's daughter, Amber, was killed by a drunk driver. She had graduated high school but had her life to look forward to. It has been a year of many tough moments and more to come. Grief doesn't just go after one moment...such a process. I have communicated with her Mom throughout this year and have been amazed at how God has brought her through such tough sorrow. I can't even come close to understanding fully. I am still praying for their family. The main comfort is knowing that she was a follower of Christ and can enjoy her wonderful Lord and Savior.

My Great Aunt Helen passed away last Sunday. She lived a long life. She was gracious and a complete lady. A teacher and had a passion to teach others. We will miss her but appreciate her legacy.

We never know the hour when our time will come to leave this earth. I am so glad there is hope and that hope is Christ Jesus!

Big Angry Eyes

Today we were eating lunch and hubby hopped home to eat with us. He was stating that he did not think the rice was done enough. I disagreed. The kids chimmed in with him. I turned back to something I was doing while feeling a bit irritated (ie, "Be grateful for what you get already!"). My daughter saw me and exclaimed "Oh no, now Mommy's really mad at us, she has those big eyes that are angry!" I couldn't help it, it was So funny that I burst out laughing hysterically along with son and hubby. It evolved into much snorty laughter. Ohhh, why must they noticed so well when I am having a bad attitude. Well, at least the big angry eyes turned into squinty happy eyes.

My son on the other hand came to me a few minutes ago and said "Mommy, did you know that your my Mommy but also my sister?" (honey, I know we are originally from Arkansas but that doesn't mean...) I said, "Really?" He said, "Yes, you're my sister in Christ!" HOW CUTE!!! Whewl sure I am!!

More Info.

I got tagged by my sweet friend visiongirl to do a more informational tag.

The 4 Things Meme

4 Jobs:
1) Counselor
2) Kelly, Hart, Hallman law firm Receptionist
3) J.B. Hunt telecommunications
4) McDonald's cashier

4 Movies I Could Watch Over and Over:
1) Pride and Prejudice
2) Anne of Green Gables
3) Narnia
4) Lord of the Rings

4 Websites I Visit Regularly:
1) blogs of friends or fellow women I enjoy
2) Ways to Market yourself/Stay at home opportunities
3) e-bay
4) news

4 Favorite Foods:
1) chips and salsa
2) cheese enchiladas, refried beans and rice
3) fettecini chicken and pasta
4) brownies (my favorites are so healthy! L)

4 Places I Would Rather Be Right Now: Really I am quite content being just where I am but if I had to choose another place...
1) at my sister's house with our kids playing and she and I talking and planning.
2) playing at the beach with my three sweeties, hubby and kids!
3) visiting my parents/grands
4) with a group of women I love in a bible study/share/prayer time

4 Books I Could Read Over and Over:
1) the Bible
2) Cindy Rushton's Homeschooling the Easy Way and Marilyn Howshall's Wisdom's Way of Learning, basically any homeschooling books that I like
3) home organization books....love to study this!
4) home decorating books....love to study this too!

4 Songs I Could Listen to Over and Over: this is a tough one, I love so many and it changes from time to time.
1) Selah - Anything they sing
2) All I want for Christmas...such pep. tune
3) Natalie Grant - most of her stuff but love song "Held" and "Believe"
4) Josh Groben and Charlotte church "The Prayer"

4 Reasons Why I Keep a Blog:
1) Love having input/output from home at times I have available
2) Explore others thoughts and write more
3) I've only lived in area 6 months and have gotten to know some people deeply but still....feel lonely for true, Godly friends
4)journal happenings with my kids/family

4 Places I’ve Lived: (this could be a long one...will only list 4)
1) Columbia, SC
2) Athens, TN
3) Fort Worth, TX
4) Bella Vista AR

4 TV Shows I Love:
1) What not to wear
2) SuperNanny
3) Divine Design with Candice Olsen
4) American Idol (only I only have seen a few of these this season.)

4 Places I’ve Vacationed
1)Branson, MO
2)Pigeon Forge, SC
3)South Padre Island, TX
4)Camping in MO

Whew, if any lasted with me through all those answers consider yourself tagged!!:) It is fun to think about.

Questions!!

Okay, I have always thought it might be fun to be a "Dear Abby" columnist or talk personality. So, wanna make my dreams reality? Sure ya do! L

Think of a good question, maybe one you have or someone else has had and submit it in my comments. If you don't want people to know it is you, feel free to submit anonymously.

These can be silly or serious questions (just not lude or inappropriate for this blog)

I think I'll make up a name for myself...you can give ideas on that as well! I've always loved the name Victoria, so for now, you can call me

Dear Tori!

Tag, I'm it!!

TAG! I'm it! I've been tagged! :) I'm so excited! I enjoy a good blog-game. I've been tagged by www.prayingforaprodigal.blogspot.com. I must list six random things about myself, and then tag six more people. They have instructed me to "First post your six things, then you go to six other blogs and let them know they are tagged and to find the details on your blog." Not one that likes to disappoint, here goes!

1. I got to sing with a 300 person choir behind me backing me up....talk about cool backup.

2. I have an amazing twin sister who I LOVE....http://www.memoirsofaministerswife.blogspot.com aka Literature Lover. I also have a brother who I LOVE who is 6 years younger than us almost to the day...born the day after us.

3. I LOVE my new virtual friends and blogging!

4. I am a Major "Hugger".

5. I have a Masters in Marriage and Family Counseling and Religious Education.

6. I am Crazy about my hubby and kids!!

Since my link is still not working I am going to share the names but it won't link to them. Since I am only allowed six I will let you guys tag the others. :) I tag Literature Lover, Butterfly1976, JulieBohemian, JoyfulJourney, ThisOne'sForThe Girls, Sarah. Enjoy!

Hmm

This morning my son asked me to look something up for him on the computer. I did. While I was doing it sister asked why I liked the computer so much. Then, brother said "If you had to pick between us and the computer which would you pick?" Okay, computer going off.

(btw, when I looked at him and asked, what do you think I would pick? at least he laughed and said "us". )

Stepping away slowly...slowly...

Modern Day Miracle!!

I am so excited I don't even know how to begin this post! I have a friend (BTW - asked her permission to share this) who has struggled throughout her life with not feeling God cared or loved her. She is a christian but much of her belief system was in deep wounds from early childhood. We have stayed in touch for around 12 years. I have watched her struggle in this and tried to help but the struggle continued. Last night God did a work in her!

I have a background in counseling and I have gone to training on a prayer/counseling ministry called theo-phostic. I cannot begin to explain it in a sentence but I will try, it is really coming to grips with wounds in the past, realizing the lies the enemy has crippled them with (i.e. unworthy, trapped, unloved etc), then asking God to reveal His truth to them. Most people feel they will never be able to get past their past. However, God has other plans. His light shines and His truth sets them free. I never know how He will do it with each person but when He does reveal Himself it is amazing!

We talked and the conversation got more serious. She still questioned God's love and mercy, why He would allow such pain and then not be there for her.

I felt Him prompting me to encourage her to bring it to Him. She did. Silence. She felt so much fear, sadness, frustration, betrayal that He wouldn't respond. He led me to encourage her to wait on Him. She did. He brought to her mind a past painful memory. She was letting her pain out. God revealed where He was in that moment.

Picking her up and holding her, rocking her, with her, letting her rest on Him, wiping her tears.

She said to me "I can't believe He was there! He is holding me, all I ever wanted was for him to hold me." God knew exactly what she needed, I had no idea what she really needed....but He did. She didn't want to leave that moment. His presence was evident and the new picture in her mind was beauty for ashes.

I am not about emotionalism but I am of the mind that God still does miracles in our modern day and I am so happy to have been part of one!! My friend re-visited her earlier negative beliefs...they were gone. Her new fellowship with Him was so sweet. The truth He gave her in that memory had set her free! I think because I had been with her through some of these tough struggles it was extra sweet!

Thank you, Lord of all! for touching and healing my beloved friend!

Did I Judge her?

Over the weekend we had various committments and fun gatherings. When I was at one of these gatherings a discussion came up about a relationship between one of the ladies daughter and a guy(not growing christian) that she was going to prom with. She was telling how she felt she should show love to him with the love of Christ. I was sitting next to a another lady who is very good to voice her opinion and stated her stance "Well, I could love the guy with the love of Christ but not allow him to date my daughter." I really agreed with that statement and although I said nothing the first lady seemed to want to justify all the more...as if trying to convince me she was right.

Later we left to go to another party.

Today I got a call from the lady with the daughter. She was wounded. After I had left the previous day, more discussion ensued about Easter Egg Hunts and those who agreed with it and those who did not. Other things had also been discussed like teenagers dress code and parents lack of following through.

Okay, enough of all the details. Anyway, I am on the phone with this lady who feels hurt and judged. I Listened. I empathized. I realized. She felt judged....and I think I had judged.

There are many times that I feel passionate about something and really want someone to see the truth and see my point of view...especially if I have more experience or if I just feel I'm right and they would benefit from my knowledge. L You know, mentorship.

I do think mentorship is invaluable and we all need to be humble enough to accept it including me. However, is there a difference between mentoring and judging.

My friend said something that hit me hard....she said "I mean, God did give me my children to raise so why do other people have to judge me for it!" I like that statement when it comes to my kids but not so much when it comes to kids whose parents don't seem to care if they are being considerate of other people or not! However, if I think negatively for them am I judging? Am I being honest? What?!

I felt in this instance that I had to admit I had judged. I have not walked in her shoes with her kids and she has kids that are older so I should respect her decision even if I don't agree with it.

So, it is a hard one to resolve. I mainly listened on the phone and encouraged. You know, we mothers already feel like failures in our job a LOT of the time and I think the enemy capitalizes on that. So, I am realizing that I really need to walk a far extra mile to ensure that I love and not judge.

I felt for her today, my friend, and I wished I had not judged.

The Tomb Is Empty! HE IS RISEN!!!!

Mat 28:1 Now after the Sabbath, as it began to dawn toward the first {day} of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary came to look at the grave.
Mat 28:2 And behold, a severe earthquake had occurred, for an angel of the Lord descended from heaven and came and rolled away the stone and sat upon it.
Mat 28:3 And his appearance was like lightning, and his clothing as white as snow.
Mat 28:4 The guards shook for fear of him and became like dead men.
Mat 28:5 The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid; for I know that you are looking for Jesus who has been crucified.
Mat 28:6 "He is not here, for He has risen, just as He said. Come, see the place where He was lying.
Mat 28:7 "Go quickly and tell His disciples that He has risen from the dead; and behold, He is going ahead of you into Galilee, there you will see Him; behold, I have told you."
Mat 28:8 And they left the tomb quickly with fear and great joy and ran to report it to His disciples.


I love it!! "...with fear and great joy and ran to report it..." Wanting to do the same!! Praise Him!!

The Day He Died

Mat 27:45 Now from the sixth hour darkness fell upon all the land until the ninth hour.
Mat 27:46 About the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, "ELI, ELI, LAMA SABACHTHANI?" that is, "MY GOD, MY GOD, WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME?"
Mat 27:47 And some of those who were standing there, when they heard it, {began} saying, "This man is calling for Elijah."
Mat 27:48 Immediately one of them ran, and taking a sponge, he filled it with sour wine and put it on a reed, and gave Him a drink.
Mat 27:49 But the rest {of them} said, "Let us see whether Elijah will come to save Him."
Mat 27:50 And Jesus cried out again with a loud voice, and yielded up His spirit.
Mat 27:51 And behold, the veil of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom; and the earth shook and the rocks were split.

Friends

Thank you all for the sweet comments and prayers. I feel God is really showing me that I need to trust him and let my offenses go...forgiving. Anyway, one thing I am completely thankful for in life is friends! I think God gave them as such encouragement! When we moved I really missed my friends and still do, but I am making new ones and as silly as this may sound...I love blogworld!!! and my friends here as well!!! :)

I was reading from another Mom whose son has left for a job far away. It made me cry but also was SOOO sweet you will have to check it out.(http://www.prayingforaprodigal.blogspot.com ) BTW, I try to link, you know where you hit the link button and then are able to put a word and link the address, but it isn't working. Is anyone else having this problem? Let me know if you have a solution!

Hope you are having a great day!

Hard Day

Sunday we had the vote for the worship leader. It did not go well. The vote was split and the "no's" got it. We were floored. My husband was hurt. He is the pastor and it felt like a slap in the face to his direction. This has not been the case with other things but I think with music people get really touchy. Needless to say, I, as the fill in "volunteer worship leader" was Very disappointed. I thought if I could just make it until they came all would be fine. Now, I am debating giving my 2 weeks notice and letting them find someone else.

My sweet hubby did an amazing job relaying the message to the sweet couple but there is no good way to give that kind of news. They are young but were so gracious...it was tough. Please pray for my husband as he was hit hard by this and wrestling with other thoughts. Pray for me as I want to support him and not take up an offense (although at this point offense is taken). Sometimes in ministry and dealing with this sort of thing you want to just throw in the towell and go live like everyday people, getting to minister how you choose without people's expectations. However, I know spiritual warfare happens and that is more what this is about. I know we have the victory. Sorry this is a downer e-mail but thanks for your prayers.

Victory!

I am loving this song! Especially right here at Easter time...whoo! Sing it Yolanda~

Spiral Staircase/Along Side Us

I was reading another blog from kindredspiritmom and she was addressing a journey on spiral staircase. I felt like she did, that sometimes I am going in circles on my journey...like a merry-go-round. Costantly learning and re-learning the same things wondering if I am ever going to get it. However, her analogy to a spiral staircase was so much more encouraging...going in circles but continually going up a little further.

Today was one of the days I felt God showed me we are climbing a little. Let me start by saying, I have loved Marilyn Howshall's writings for some time. I posted an article about some of her stuff. Anyway, she talks about kids coming along side you and learning what you are learning in your personal walk.

Today my dd was drawing some oranges. She didn't think she did very well. She is 6 and I looked and was amazed! Her oranges had little indentions at the top and really looked great! I admired and encouraged and asked her how she knew how to draw the top of the orange...she sheepishly looked at me and said...."From an artist." I said, "Really? What artist?" She said, "You Mommy!" Then I remembered that a few days earlier I had been sketching some fruit (inspired by sister and carrielouise) and had been practicing on that very thing...along side us.

Then, my son was talking about death and my daughter said, "But Noah, no one has to be scared of death because you would be with your Daddy!" (her arms lifted up to him) I loved it because a few days ago we had been talking of God being Abba, our Daddy. They loved that and she remembered it...Thank you Lord. ...along side us..

I was trying to delve into more scripture and even memorize portions so I was taping myself and listening. My son loved what I had done and wanted to copy me...delving in word...memorization....meditation....along side us.

I am so thankful to my Heavenly Daddy that he takes us along side Him so we can take them along side us.

A Case of the Giggles

The other night my son and I were in the middle of a project that we had been working on for a while. Right at the end for no apparent reason my son got a case of the giggles. He could not stop. Not the irritating trying to be funny kind but the real giggles. He would try to get a grip but then would burst again. I began to get tickled just because of him. We would try to re-focus because we both wanted to accomplish what we had begun but there was no getting it done. The giggles invaded.

Do you remember times like this?

It reminded me of times in my past where something hit me funny and I could not contain the giggles. They like to invade at the most inappropriate times (like when someone falls and is sprawled out on the floor) but when they hit there is no stopping them....oh, you can try but you can't hide....in just a minute....here they come again. You can almost feel it a coming from the depths of your belly and there it is....hahahahaha....

No one can tell me that our God doesn't have a sense of humor.

Laughable

I have been reading up on servanthood, including wonderful ways to serve hubby and make him feel cherished and treasured. Anyway, I clean up dinner and he has just come in from a meeting. I offer ice cream to the kids and to him. He takes the offer and enjoys. I stop and take time to visit with him. I go back to finish in kitchen and ask him if he would like some tea to drink. He pauses, says he already has water. Then, I think he is talking to the kids, he says "What's wrong?" He asks again and I realize he is talking to me. I say "Nothing." He says "Do you have some bad news you need to tell me." "No" "What is it then?" I start laughing at this point. I go over and sit in his lap and snuggle him and say "No, I just realized that I need to be letting my very best friend know that he is that special. I just love you." He just looks at me then acts like he is trying to see if I have the Mission Impossible mask on. We both get tickled. I know he likes to jest with me but it hits me that I am not doing near enough cherishing...you know,the little things. I get focused on my agendas or family stuff or kids etc. So, if I was wondering about needing that lesson on servanthood, I think God gave me the message LOUD and clear!

Too Funny!

Okay, this is too funny. This homeschool mom came up with a t-shirt that is hysterical. Tell me what you think and if you would be brave enough to wear it.

http://homeschoolblogger.com/creativehomeschooling/20348

Pearl Gate

I have prayed for a hunger for God's word. I love His word and want to read it, but when I read David talking over and over about how much He LOVES God's words and when I hear Beth Moore talking about how she can't live a day without them I have to re-think my love of them. I definitely feel that there are seasons I feel this way but not a daily consistent longing. Well, I feel God has used some new outlets to begin this longing in me.

It started while reading "A Woman After God's Own Heart"as well as the"Cornerstones" book for girls. In the Cornerstone book it talked about preparing our girls to have work at home so they wouldn't have to work outside the home even if they never married. I thought this was so neat since I have needed to do this from time to time. She gave great thoughts on how to use natural skills and talents and it got me to thinking about what were mine. This started an idea in my head. Then, when reading the other book it talked about imparting God's wisdom to our children all throughout the day. I have read those verses and that has always been a goal but I felt lacking. Anyway, what started as one venture turned into a different venture and it has set my mind a churning. It was contagious because my kids wanted in on what I was doing. I found I was consumed with a passage and trying to memorize it. The more I thought and dwelt the more I wanted to read it again. The more I tried to memorize the more I took home. So, was this the meditating He was talking about? The part I memorized was life in me. Then, in S.S. we were in Revelation. There were parts that related to the part of scripture I had been meditating on. And chewing on throughout the day, and re-visiting, and learning, searching, loving.

Anyway, I was in S.S. and the lesson was on ch.21. I was amazed by some facts I have missed in the past. I always heard the pearly gates but this is neat:

"1Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and first earth had passed away, and the sea existed no longer....16bHe measured the city with a rod at 12,000 stadia...19a the foundation of the city wall were adorned with every kind of precious stone....

21 THE TWELVE GATES ARE 12 PEARLS! each individual gate was made of a single pearl. The broad street of the city was pure gold, like transparent glass."

Can you imagine walls as long as 1500 miles and a gate, a single pearl big enough to be the gate. It goes on to say,

"25 Each day its gates will never close because it will never be night there."

Anyway, that afternoon I told my son I had some neat stuff from the Bible but I would tell him a little later. Later he begged me to share what I was talking about. I did and it turned into big discussion and Bible focus. I love those God moments that I already have with my kids but I realized I need to be more intentional about it and help them also be excited about the living truth! I found it really is contagious. When I was excited and focused there so were they. Hmmm, sometimes things I make hard really should be easy. In fact, Jesus addresses that, my yoke easy and burden light.

Wave Therapy

Ocean, originally uploaded by Martina.

(don't know the people in the picture but this is what our beach looks like)
Yesterday was our family day and we took off for some much need wave therapy(As my husband likes to call it...truly it is theraputic). We drove over to the beach! It was so fun to pack a lunch and head there. The water was still very cold to me but that didn't stop my kids. Off they went to swim, splash,make sand castles and play spy games on the sand dunes. Meanwhile, hubby and I sat with the waves crashing, wind gently blowing and sea gulls gawking, reading our books. Mine was "A Woman after God's own Heart"(very good and convicting in a good way....probably another blog) and husbands was a Calvin and Hobbs book. We had fun reading and talking, looking at seashells and just relaxing. Ahhhhhhhhh. Refreshing.

Jesus, take the wheel by Carrie Underwood

I'm not much into country music but this song is good. The title pretty much says it all.

Beating Up

I have found in my thoughts lately that I worry too much and beat myself up. Whether it is not doing enough in my parenting or schooling or housework or ministry. It can be overwhelming. I feel that I genuinely try but so many times feel the failure. I will let my thoughts get to me before I even realize it. Taking thoughts captive can be a challenge. I've realized that self talk or enemy talk can be upon me so fast and have me down before I even know it. I don't feel that I live my life with a lot of regrets but I think that is the thing I fear the most....regretting. I don't want to regret how I raised my children or treated my husband or how my kids turn out or the ministry I am involved in. I want to see fruit like I feel I should see it. I want so bad for my kids to be passionate about the Lord but I have seen other faithful parents whose children didn't choose that road. I have fears. I am not in control. Nor do I really want to be but it seems that sometimes I wish I were. It seems that my actions look like I have the illusion of having some semblance of control. It is almost a relief for me to realized I don't and that He does. It is also a thing I fear. I know He loves me and realizes all I can handle but I wrestle there. I wish I didn't. I don't want to feel beat up daily. I am praying that He will help me with this battle of the mind and choosing to see the good He has done in me and allow Him to deal with the struggles and future. I need to rest there. I hope I will. But, really, the point I have to come to is that it is not about me and my wants, rather His purpose. His purpose scares me, I can't be perfect in it and I feel that means failure. But He knew that didn't He? It is more of a process of trusting....which I also have issues with. Wow, still so much growing to do. Growth, that is a process I can relate to.

Menu Plans

I was inspired to write out my plans due to my sister(LL) and friend(TOFTG). I wanted to link to their sites but my link button is acting up. Plus, it just helps me when I get it on paper or blog...:)

Monday
L-Mac & Cheese, fruit salad
S- Bacon Wrapped Pork Tenderloin
Cheesy Potatoes
Carrots and Peas
Fruit Salad

Tues.
L- Grilled turkey & cheese
S- Homemade Vegetable Beef Soup
fruit

Wed.
L-Hot Pocket sandwich
S-Creamy Chicken with Pasta, veggies, bread and butter

Thurs.
L-PBJ
S-Chicken fajitas or enchildas
Refried beans and rice

Friday
L-Meat, Cheese and Fruit Kabobs (copied from my sister)
S-Meatloaf
Mashed Potatoes
Green beans

Sat.
L-chicken nuggets, chips,
carrots and broccli, fruit
S - Pizza at the church

Sun.
L-Out to Eat
S-Cereal

Riveting Hero

I had the real privledge of reading the beginning of a book from a Viet Nam vet with a purple heart. I couldn't put it down. It was riveting!! The Viet Nam vet just happens to be my Dad. I was amazed at all that my Dad faced. I have to share a short paragraph about one moment when he and the other marines were squatting down waiting to move because they knew the enemy was close around them. It is not even the most suspenseful part but one I didn't know which gave me even more insight into what they faced.

"We were spaced out 20 yards or so between each other to not cause any attention while our point Marines were observing the village. We were waiting quietly for what seemed forever in this heat and humidity. As I squatted down near a bush to wait I noticed movement in the monkey grass 30 yards to my side. I noticed this large snake which appeared to be 6 to 8 feet long, not sure what kind but the head was much larger than the body. I was told later that it probably was a Monocellate or King Cobra, they can grow up to 17.5 feet long. He raised his head above the grass and looked around and then seemed to fix his eyes on me and headed my way. I could not fire my weapon without giving away our position so I drew my bayonet and got ready to try and cut him in half before he bit me, as he got close and I got ready he stopped and looked at me and then headed in the opposite direction. What a relief as I took a deep breath and wondered what would have been the outcome. I understand that there are around 140 snake species in Vietnam and 30 of them are poisonous."

I can't wait until my Dad finishes his story. I will be recommending it to everyone. He faced such opposition and has never been one to talk about it unless we asked. He is a man who is unassuming but has such magnificent strength. I think the thing I took away while reading is that He is a hero. He would never agree to that but he is. He got a friend who was freezing up out of fear, to act and move when the enemy was firing at them. If he hadn't they wouldn't have made it through. He also helped another man who was just sitting by his friend grieving and in shock and forced him to move. I am also equally thankful to others who saved his life in the midst of battle. It was so harsh some of what they faced but I am so thankful that my Dad made it home and that He had the Lord to lean on during that time. Dad, thank you for your bravery and heroic measures. You are my hero!

Hair Reformation

While being at my Mom's she tried desperately to help my bleached blond (that I had previously messed up) with very dark one inch roots take a better turn. She pulled my hair through to do some low lights. Well, we pulled a little too much through and it all turned dark. It was like a dark ash gray....hmmm...nice. We decided the next day it must be remedied again so once again I went through the poking my head while she painstakingly pulled it through yet another time. Finally I would look natural. She didn't pull as much hair through and although it is much lighter it is more of a dark blond with a few highlights. Aww well, we tried. I don't want my hair to fall out so we must stop for now but maybe in a month....heehee....Mom is begging me not to touch my hair again. I feel it was a process from ugly egg to trying to get to the swan. Maybe I made it to a wan.

trying to go from eggly to swan

Suprisingly Lengthy Trip

What started out as a trail to visit family has turned rather lengthy. I took my husbands car at the last minute due to hurrying to beat out bad weather that was coming where I was going. I made it in time to be safe. Thank you Lord. However, when I was driving those 70 mile an hour my car was beginning to shake pretty bad so I would slow down. I was worried that a screw was loose around the tired or something. It seemed to do okay without the shakes when I slowed down. It was hard to stay slower because I was in a hurry to end our 14 hour trip but at the same time I didn't want to be on the side of the road either.

When I got to my husband's side of the family they specifically asked if I had car trouble. (God protecting) When I told my Mom in law about my trouble she took me straight to the shop where we found out my tires and alignment were bad. My parents-in-law graciously blessed me with all new tires. THANK YOU!!However, the car place said they couldn't get it aligned because I had a rod that was bent and it needed to go to the dealer to get fixed. So, I decided to do that when I got to my folks. Of course, I stopped at sister's first and enjoyed my time then headed to my parents. I took it to the shop and they had to order a part that wouldn't come in until Tues.

Well, they called me yesterday and had the part(which was going to be very expensive with labor) but couldn't get it to align so they found further problem. Our fiances can only take so many hits. Please pray for our car problems to end and it not be as severe as it is sounding. I couldn't sleep for a while last night thinking but God has given peace and I know He is in charge of all.

I will say that my family has been so wonderful to accomodate and love on me while I keep staying on yet another day. We are having a wonderful time but Really Missing Hubby/Daddy and ready to head back home. I would covet your prayers that the soloution would be brief and good.

Dancing

I have had so much fun family time this week. It has been good. It is hard to feel you want to be in two places but can only reside in one at a time.

While we were at my sister she and I enjoyed listening to music and dancing around while making lunches or cleaning up or just being goofy.

Anytime my kids hear upbeat music their little bodies just get to grooving. I love to watch the process.

My nieces put on a skating show for me that was just to die for!! They got costumes that really made me excited to go see the show. They did a terrific job!! Little ice princesses in the making.

My nephew is a hoot!! His dance is a jive and boogie (kindof like his Daddy) ! He really hears the beat and can move to it!

My Mom and Dad have been taking dance lessons and I got to see their moves....very cute!!! I would love to do this with my husband....exercise, romance and fun!

I love that God did put dancing in the Bible and He loves for us to dance unto Him. I think how fun it is for me to watch others dance for joy and I can see why He must love it.

So, off I go to dance another day and enjoy!

The Sister-hood

I have been visiting family and having a blast! I LOVE LOVE my Sista!
She and I Love to talk and laugh!

She is the one I can turn to when the mexican dinner is hitting my bladder and give a look to let her know a bathroom is needed pronto ain't no time to climb a ladder! She doesn't shudder or complain but only lets me do my thing.

She is the one who can turn music on and we sing together at the top of our lungs. We love to dance and act as on stage hoping that no one will see through the window blades. We still love using our old hand mikes and laughing at each other which isn't so nice.

I love to tease and get her goat because she gives me a look that can make me roll.

She is the one who can twitch her tiny nose and look like bewitching's samatha and poise.

Tonight we were visiting in the room and she asked me if that made me think of a girl we had known. I couldn't recall and she went out of the room only to come flying as if shooting bullets from boobs. I lost it with laughter and she calmly said "You don't recall?" All that she heard was very loud Ha Ha's.

She is all about details and loves her graph paper. She sometimes likes improv but would rather be safer.

She has always loved to read and books are a treat. I can't wait for her first written book I know I will be glued to my seat.

She is the person all friends want to know. She is loyal to the end and no punches will throw. She speaks truth in love and is empathetic and kind. She is like a ruby, a very rare find. I love her so deeply and feel that God knew, deep in that womb He must create two. I love that she enters life stages with me and that we challenge each other as we grow into maturity.

I love that she looks to God to be her guide and follows His word trying not to glide by. She loves her sweet husband and darling little children and strives to be a better servant. She leads other women by the life that she leads, allowing them to see her up moments and retreats.

She takes pride in her work and cares for her home. Living life's moments for the Lord on the throne.

I don't know how to express the joy that she brings it reminds me simply of hearing her sing.

I cannot believe how blessed I have been to have Such a Sister and Such a Dear Friend!!!!